I knew something was wrong the moment I saw myself in the mirror, but I couldn't be sure how bad it would be till I wore my uniform again.
To my horror, only the first 4 buttons of my shirt could be buttoned and my tummy was left exposed. I knew my shirt would probably get a little more fitting since Friday but this was absolutely ridiculous!. A weekend and a public holiday and this happens....
I feel disgusted and upset at the same time. I can't fit into my work uniform!, the only thing I had pride wearing. Sigh....
Labels: Frustration
5:07 AM
My heart is void, but a glimmer of hope. I don't understand this hope, though I understand enough to know that this hope is of divine origin. I've lost interest and given up on many things but I would have given it all up if not for that hope.
This hope has a timely way of revealing Himself. He reveals Himself whenever I feel that all hope is lost and that there is no genuine love. Out of nowhere, when and where I least expect it... He reveals himself through someone.
I see Him at my lowest points. I saw Him again recently, in a colleague and as always I was immediately drawn to His essence. He brought me to a new place and introduced me to an impressive shepherd of His. The great shepherd leads but I'm stubborn as a goat, I see no future for myself but oh Great Hope!, where art thou?...surely I'm there for a purpose!
Jesus my Hope, show me what I'm looking for...
Labels: Reflection, Struggles
11:43 PM
My Lord loves humans the most among all his creations and I don't quite get it! but I'm trying to love all humans again for his sake. It's been really difficult, especially to those humans who have wronged me. I pray that I become more compassionate, graceful and loving towards other humans so that I may become more like my Lord.
Labels: Hunger, Reflection
2:38 PM
It took 3 days but I finally completed the new layout! It feels as though I'm using a new blog!! Pretty excited but sleepy atm, off to bed...need to be in church in a few hours time. Till tmr! :D
Labels: Exciting, New
12:37 AM
About Me
Name: S Sherwin Pillai
DOB: 30 Nov 1987
Occupation: Administrative Assistant
There is nothing I can write in this space that you will not learn by reading my blog.
In a nutshell I have the propensity to worry, I fear dislocating my hip joint, but despite
that fear I would sprint for the bus. I love my God, he is the truth! and I know it for a fact.
I enjoy doing random acts of kindness and bringing cheer to those in need. I enjoy learning about
parenting though I'm years away from having my own child. Very strongly feel that people should not
be judged by outward appearances. I'm obese, have bipolar disorder and hypermobilty syndrome
so I can be quite a crazy, hyperactive and flexy lump of lard at times too.
Wishlist
My own house
Custom my own High-End Desktop PC
Get a high paying job
Settle down and have kids
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Email:
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